It's scheduled

Hello my friends! Alright, let's just get right down to it, shall we? The surgery is scheduled for April 14th. Both James and I feel good about the surgeon, the date, and the whole process. Ok, so that's that.

Right now I am listening to Bonnie Raitt sing "Have a Heart". I just love the bluesy, soulful sound of this song! One of my most favorite parts is at the very beginning where she says "Hey! Shut up!" It cracks me up every time. It's a good song that everyone should listen to. Just close your eyes and feel the music. Let it work its way up through your heart and mind. My head isn't hurting, my asthma is playing nice today, and my mind is at peace so of course I've got the music up loud and I am singing at the top of my lungs. Today it is Bonnie Raitt. She's good; she has a lot of feeling in her songs. I like days like this. Days where I can feel relaxed, comfortable, and appreciate of the music others have made. 

I was told that the surgery has a risk of damaging the muscles and nerves in my throat around my vocal chords. This could result in a hoarse voice for the rest of my life. As a definite supporter of talking (most of you know that I can take my fair share, and then some, of any conversation...including those I have with myself! This girl can talk!) this can be a little concerning. However, as an avid singer (and most of you know how much I love to sing!) this causes some anxiety for me. I asked if it happened to me would I be able to sing again. The surgeon said that most people notice their pitch is off. I think my eyes bulged out of my head, my mouth dropped open, and I said (probably a little too loudly) "You mean I'm going to be off key?!?!" James just smiled. I can live with not being able to talk again for the rest of my life, but not being able to sing? Well, that's just out of the question! He did say there was a 75% recovery rate with practice and the such. At least that's something. I just don't know what it would be like to not be able to sing. That is a very big part of my life. Sometimes I think that is the one thing I am good at; that's my one talent. I don't want to lose it, because then what else would I be good at? I guess I could always brag about my Excel skills (CONCATENATE!! again, dk, for you), or talk up my mad merging skills at Word. But somehow it's just not the same. I can picture myself at some party where I'm introduced to someone new: "Crystal, let me introduce you to the group. This is Bob, he's a real estate guru. This here's Carol. She's a fashion diva. And over here we have Leslie. She's an artist. Everyone, this is Crystal. She can mail merge."

Nice.

Anyway, I'll more than likely be doing a lot more singing, humming, and whistling here over the next six to eight weeks. Consider yourself warned. Yes, I will take requests (for both songs you want to hear, and those you don't). No, I don't do rap. And yes, feel free to introduce me to some of your favorite songs/groups/people. I am always interested in expanding my music library - both in my mp3 player and in my mind. :) Thanks!